Things started to change between you and me. Whats happening? Where's the old you? The old us? Nowadays we was not that we used to be. Trying my best to text you and to act to be normal,but it seems nothing can work. Seriously its killing me day by day. Its more suffering then a disease. Im the one who wanna you the most in the first of all. Can see thru you,that you regret being with me. Im a stranger towards you. Not thinking the negative abt you. But after the incident happen,day by day it change slow by slow. The pain thru that,ur words crash my heart into pieces. I cant share anything with you anymore. You was like damn fucking dont care abt me. When i msg you,only one word you will reply. Im too impatient that maybe sometime my words do hurt you too. Cinta SMS,that is what you say. My tears keep rolling down. I dont even know what gonna happen next. Maybe you will leave me without any clues? Naaahh.. I just follow the flow what you wanna make it. Im trying my best to be the best that i can be. But i dont seems that i can make you happy. I think that im useless.. That is why we maintain like this. I dont even know what to say to you. Each time we will fight abt small matter. Why didnt you text me first? Why cant you make a move? Always im the one who will keep texting you. I waited for ur msg,i think that you will text me but im wrong:'( I want you to know that iloveyousomuch..

Til here ,

:'(

Yesterday night msgging wif my babybooo. Tears keep on rolling all the way. Sit down at void desk talking all alone like crazy man. What to do,trying myself to tahan my tears from rolling down. Reached home,I take a bath and guess imagine my tears drop again. Omg! I swear I never feel this weak before. First time crying for the one that I love.

Babybooo,you will never know how much Iloveyou,how much you mean to me. I'm confuse with my mind,should I stay or should I go? I don't wanna hurt ur feelings again and again. I keep thinking about us,about what you going to give ur ans to EFA. I don't wanna be apart from you. I don't wanna be ur easier goodbye. I just want you to have a good life out there. Sometime I think I don't deserve you neither deserve the tears that you ever cried for me before. You have been patient wif me all this while. You understand me,you give me the support and strength in whatever things that I do. Baby,my tears dropping now. Haiz,nevermind continue typing. I just wanna let my feelings out here. We fight over my needs,ur career and over the meet up. You know that I abit mind with ur career for some reason. I'm trying my best to trust you babybooo. Seriously,I don't wanna history to be repeated again. If it's time for you to give ur ans to them,I guess wanna you to make ur decision wisely. Deep down my heart,I don't want you to go. I can't be apart from you. You are my everything. I redha Atas aperh pun yg Akan terjadi Nanti. I brought for you a bear and I wanna give you that. Babybooo,you are my everything. You are strength,my bestfriend,my girlfriend and my soul.

Will our love episode everlasting til my last breath?

What will happen next,tomorrow and all the way down?

I'm sowie for the hurt that I cause you.

I swear I'm gonna love you for the rest of my life.

Til we meet up soon.

Much love,

Ramzi Ashburn

hello earthlings..

this gonna be my first post for my very first blog.

i know im way too outdated hahaha .

hello 2011!.. time flies real fast huh

please dun ask me to summarise what i've done for the whole year.

achived what i aim for? - too good to be true.

doing well in school? - errr. lucky u if u saw me attending fr classes.

good results? - stoooooopid question.

changes of attitude? - a little bit betta laaahh.

got into trouble? - ahhhhhh. tuuurh tkderh.=)

doing something meaningful? - more of meaningless onesss. blame my frens for this.

more frens less enemy? - definitely people who wanna act big.

had crushes on anyone? - Baby Megan.

falling in love? - Read above!

found a job? - jyeahhh. i got one job. trying to save up money. hahaa. satu perubahan.=)

to be treasured? -i had crazy frens all around me. thanx for all those laughters n smiles u all brought me for the past 365 days. although u guys are big time irritaters. but still u guys lighten up my days. haha. n shall not forget im bless with a good mum n sisters and brothers. thanx for all those lil or big sacrifices u guys made for me all this years. appreciate it alot. iloveyou.

2011 resolution? - never cared abt all these shit before. should try it this year. haha. definitely i wanna be good human being. even if i cant. but atleast be a betta one then i am right now.

should really work on it.

p/s Ramzi Ashburn officially owns a blog.=)